A mess with yet another (missed) god-like therapist

Situation: A superb, amazing therapist offers unusual workshops at a London College. The workshops are really fantastic and start off a lot of healing in me.
I miss the 3d workshop, and ask him how to catch up with it. He suggests I should come for a private session (at vast expense) at his house, (not knowing there were cheaper one-to-one sessions at the college) and that session, even though helpful in some small ways, is greatly disappointing, as I was really tired and he talked at me the whole way through about his stories, and doesn't do any of the workshop material on me like I was hoping he would do.
Yes, I should have expressed what I would have liked, but when I start considering those therapists like gods, I feel it is not my right to say or ask for anything and I should just leave it to their divinity. (Poor Max)
The session leaves me frustrated and slightly upset at him, though I still want to carry on with the workshops because they have been so fantastic, and book the 3 remaining ones.
The workshop a few days after the one-to-one session is anotehr flop; I am tired again and non-communicative, and I can't help but being resentful at how much he charged me for the private session and not bringing much help for what I wanted help with.
This is a sery of emails which happened after that, he sent a newsletter to all the students and asked if we had received it.

This is another lesson... Quit seeking desperately for that precious divinity in others, but look for your own inside yourself... Humans are humans. Nobody is up there as you think they are. They may be more advanced in some things, but we really are on the same level.


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Subject: [SPAM] The A of Voice - , 2009
From: "The A of Voice" <The_@mail.com>
Date: Fri, October 23, 2009 8:46 pm
To: c@o-f.co.uk

"Dear Alchemediums,

Hello and thank you for all your many loving attentions.

So many of you have emailed me expressing your concerns for my welfare, and wondering why you weren't receiving Newsletters, or details with regard to the website's Blog. I apologize. I've been very busy as explained in the Blog, and yet now after the oscillations of the last three months (including moving home and Alchemy Base), I'm now able to extend my communications once more in this.." [etc - truncated email as I don't want to post all that]


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On 25/10/2009 12:06, "c@o-f.co.uk" <c@o-f.co.uk> wrote:


Yes, this email looks like it arrived, thanks for your newsletter.

S, thanks for giving me the angelic codes from the last workshop, though in our one to one session you explained that they had all different purpose, and those purpose are not marked below the codes themselves? Like, which was the one that was used to heal cancer patients? And had they do be said 21 times for 21 times a day for 21 days?
Could you (if you could) please tell me what the codes were used for? I really feel I missed something extremely important in that workshop and I don't feel I have caught it up at all with our "catch up" session - something I felt slightly resentful about but couldn't express at the time as I Was so tired and tied up in my own feelings of worthless ness.. LIke you said about the absolution of karma and the letting go of resentment and things, which was what that workshop was about.

Anyhow, I will stick with the workshops till the end and find in it the best I can, to help myself and my own "divinity".

Thanks

C


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Subject: Re: [SPAM] The A of Voice -
From: S P <s@s.com>
Date: Sun, October 25, 2009 10:50 am
To: <c@o-f.co.uk>

Dear Claude,

It seems by the content of this email that you haven’t received the core notion of THE ALCHEMY OF VOICE, that all there is, is love.

I suggest that if you feel the work can help you express yourself, your life and your sovereignty with love, that you wait until next season, join the workshop for THE ANGELIC CODES and then attend the two or three following workshops.

All the information that was gathered by the workshop attendees was included in the brochure I gave you. If you look under each code there is a direction given. Anything else I shared with you was information I had gathered from using the code or codes in a ‘general’ sense, and this was not imparted in the workshop.

The other day an old client of mine mentioned that KRYON has also downloaded information about codes that can be used at this time to activate our DNA. Perhaps you would be better served using that information. Also, you could transmute your resentment into realizing that you are free to interact with the work in a loving way, rather than projecting it onto someone else.

You harbor a misunderstanding. THE V FLAME is the workshop (workshop 7) where the noble rite of atonement releases Karma, once identified; the codes are defined to help identify the Karma.

Lastly, I would suggest that a more vocal or interactive role with the work, in workshop, would help you express your feelings, rather than holding them back and using a vessel like email to vent. This is evidently something that’s needs healing within you, rather than blaming anyone else, as I recommended yesterday.

Blame and Accusation symbolize our lack of ability to define our co-creative role in the behavior or feeling. It is not done to us, but rather we allow it to happen. When we wake to this, INSIGHT & RESOLUTION open a powerful path of understanding to occur, and we begin to live more love!

Love & Blessings,
S


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Subject: RE: [SPAM] The A of Voice -
From: <c@o-f.co.uk>
Date: Wed, October 28, 2009 2:52 pm
To: "S P" <s@s.com>


Do you suggest I should interrupt the workshops for now ? If it is your feeling, maybe I should indeed; I have paid for them all but I am sure they would allow me to use the money elsewhere.

Thanks for your feedback

Claude

Ps: I cant help but feeling disappointed about the one to one session; that is all. Your workshops have helped me immensely; I thought I felt safe in that group, which I dont normally do. Maybe I mistook about that safety and my being an active and wanted part of it; I always look for the God in each human being, particularly the ones that have followed a road allowing them to expand in wisdom: my mistake is I always forget they also are human, and none is pure god. We all have [human]flaws.

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Guess what: and I am getting used to this now.
HE DID NOT REPLY TO THIS EMAIL!!!

Hihihi.

I will have to start making a list of all the therapists I have traumatised with my emails or communications.

It is at least 4 this year. A healer who became a boyfriend, a hypnotherapist (who was very primitive), a craniosacral teacher and bigboss, a cranio-sacral therapist, a health book author, and now a sound healer...

All that from saying what I think, using the writen word. Maybe there is something wrong with me. Or with them. Or with both.